Questions to my Ex-Best Friend

What happened between us?

Was I too intense for you?

How come you never opened up to me like I opened up to you?

What happened?

Did you ever truly know how much pain I was in?

Do you think of me?

Can we ever go back to a normal relationship?

Did we ever have a normal relationship?

Do you think of me?

Do you know that I think of you? (Not constantly, but enough.)

Did I hurt you?

Are we still friends?

Were we ever friends?

Did you know you were my best friend?

Did you know that you were the person who hurt me the most?

Because of the relationship we had and how much I trusted in you and how much you turned around to hurt me and didn’t think twice, I can’t trust anyone anymore. You hurt me, you really did. I loved you and you took that for granted. I trusted you and you took that for granted. I let you into my crazy messed up world and you took that for granted. Now, I won’t let anyone in for fear of them getting sick of me like you did. I am sorry that I was too much for you. I am sorry that I feel things too deeply. I am sorry that I sometimes got emotional over little things. I am sorry that I am crazy. I am sorry that I didn’t know when to stop. I am sorry that I lost you. I am sorry that this hurts so much. I hate that this hurts so much. I hate that I can’t talk to you. I hate that even if I do talk to you it’s never going to be the same. I hate myself for causing this situation to happen. I hate you for letting this situation happen. I hate myself for losing you. I want my friend back. I want my best friend back. I want the person who knows all of my secrets back. I want you back.

But, I know I can’t have that. None of it.

I hate that. I hate myself. & I hate you.

Alex.

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