Act like it.
Every so often I will hear a word or a verse or someone will say something or I will watch a video like this one and things are put in to perspective.
These past two weeks have been really hard for me. I was in a really low place, but with the help of some friends who forced me to get out of my comfort zone and encourage me to let them in, I got better.
I still need to pray more and I still need to read my Bible. I still need to know that in my times of need God is still there for me and that he will never leave me and he never has. The sermon today talked about our Omnipresent and Omnipotent God and it is something I know, but at times seem to forget.
Moral of the story:
I need to realize that there will always be someone there for me and it’s okay to ask for help. God never expected us to do this (live life) on our own.
Psalm 139: 3-13
3 You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. 4 Before a word is on my tongue you, LORD, know it completely. 5 You hem me in behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me. 6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. 7 Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? 8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. 9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, 10 even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. 11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,” 12 even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. 13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
No matter what we do or where we go, God is always there. There are still times that I feel like what happened was my fault, but I have to stop and thank God that even though these incidents happened, it could have been worse. In the words of Hamilton, “I am the one thing in life I can control.” I had no control over the evil that was within my rapist and the Devil does work in mysterious ways. But, at least I was able to get out of the situation.
If anything, the incident has taught me that I am not alone and that I have people here to support me no matter what. And I will always have God on my side.